First, I want to answer my own question. I titled my last Blog, "What is Better Than a Happy Dance" and after letting everything sink in, I have concluded, the only thing better than dancing before God is getting down on your knees and bowing before Him in humble thanks.
There is nothing I can do or say that will do justice to what God did in one breath. I don't know why He would choose such a failed and flawed person like me to display His power. I have often thought there were people much more equipped than me. I can't even spell and do punctuation correctly!!
All along though, a thought kept coming to me immediately after the "Why Me?", and it was this:
"If you have faith as small as a mustard see, you can move mountains. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 20:21
When I read that verse, I would always answer, "Lord, my faith is BIGGER than a mustard seed. I know that you WILL move this mountain of cancer for your glory. Nothing is impossible for YOU!"
After claiming that verse, I could not come up with one reason why God would not reveal His healing power in my life because His will is always about drawing people to Him, and my will was about being His vessel. We were in agreement on what was important through my journey of faith. It was because of that, I knew that powerful, amazing, miraculous things would happen. Not only to me, but to others.
The news last September of lesions on my liver rocked my world. I really thought I was doing great trotting along sharing my faith and writing on this Blog. Life had become normal (the new normal), and I was living with faith that my healing day was around the corner. When things got worse, I was confused and angry. I really thought I knew what God had planned, and this was not in that plan!
Through a tough moment, I was challenged to see that I had somehow become the driver, and Jesus was in the back seat. In an act of obedience and acceptance, I climbed into the back seat and told Jesus to take the wheel. The moment I did that, the journey became more scenic!
If you made a meal, drove me to chemo, or just said my name before God; you are part of the beautiful journey that I have been on these past six months. God has deepened friendships, created new ones, and showered my family with strength and love.
Make no mistake, this miracle is not a product of chemo. The chemo I am on does not eliminate liver lesions, it holds them from spreading. This healing comes straight from a deep and unwavering belief in Jesus as my Lord and Savior. On September 3rd, at 11:00 a.m., nineteen of us gathered in a room and asked for Jesus to touch me and heal so that HIS power could be displayed. At the same time hundreds of other friends were also praying. This was all done according to scripture.
"Is any sick among you? Let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord." James 5:14
Only God can turn back time. I have been restored to what I was, physically, prior to September. The tumors that are all over my bones is still there as a reminder to keep up the faith and hope. God knows me so well, and he has to give me things in increments, otherwise I can't quite process it fully.
Now a question for you. What is God telling YOU through this miracle? Is He saying, "I am bigger than you thought?" Is He showing you that He is relevant in today's world? Have you been holding on to your life and not wanting to give Him a piece, or complete control? Did you not believe that God can do the impossible?
I hope this shatters any kind of preconcieved notion you had of God, His Son, and the Word of God. All the answers are there for you in the Bible. We may not like the path he takes us on. Restoration is painful. Cleaning the closets is hard. Giving up so that He can take over, is scary.
Tell yourself over and over, "His plan is better than mine. He can do the impossible. He sees the big picture. He loves me! He created me! He gave His only Son for me to pay the price for my sins."
If He would give His Son for you, why would He want to hold anything else back? He wants to bless you!!! There should be nothing holding YOU back at this moment. When you jump, His hands will be there to catch you. It takes a simple prayer of confession and acceptance.
This is all bigger than me being healed of liver lesions.
This is a moment for someone, somewhere, to see that God is mighty to save. He saved me by the cross long before I had cancer. He can save you too!
Jesus still does miracles today!
Humbly Yours,
Sandy
