Thursday, October 8, 2009

The Hairs on My Head

Even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. Matthew 10:20

God has a lot less hairs to count on my head! My hair is falling out by the hundreds. It is kind of sad. I think the girls (mainly Rachel) are taking it harder than me. I have two wigs standing by for when it really gets bad. For now it is a major thinning out of hair. The worst time is in the morning when I brush my hair out. My scalp has that feeling you get when you haven't washed your hair in a long time and it hurts.

Oh well, I was never in love with my hair! It is a very surreal feeling. I really could not imagine this happening, so I blocked it out and pretended like it wouldn't happen. I would rather lose my hair than be nauseous, so I can't complain.

Besides the hair loss, it has been a mild week. I had chemo on Tuesday, but did not feel achy or severely fatigued like I had before. It feels like all the chemo went straight to my hair!

I had a wonderful Bible Study on Wednesday. The speaker said this:

"If you are hearing something that you don't want to hear, it is probably coming from God."

So true! God does not kiss up to us and tell us what we want to hear. He is very clear in His Word on what it takes to live in peace and be the recipient of His lavish gifts of love. There is nothing easy about turning our lives over to Him and letting him refine us. Making changes and being different often hurt. On the flip side, when we do give Him control, it feels so incredibly good and right.

I am sending lots of love and a wish for a peaceful weekend!
Sandy