I want to update you on my current condition. I had the port put in on Friday. It all went very well. The pain is minimal. It is mostly a very tight feeling because the port is under my skin on my clavicle, and there is not much skin to stretch in that area. There is also a line to my neck which attaches to a main artery for blood draws and chemotherapy. Interesting stuff!
Jon and I got home for City of Hope around 1pm. I got to take it easy the remainder of the day, which included, laying around in my pajamas, napping, and watching television. Daytime T.V. is really bad. I stuck to The Food Channel and the Dog Whisperer. I still can't cook, but Buddy is in for some big changes!
I will try chemo again on Tuesday. Everyone I talk to seems confident that the Nuepogen shots will work. I have been told that I will continue to get those shots, so that means more days at City of Hope.
These days, I don't ask, "what would Jesus do?" I ask, "what would Jesus want ME to do?" Every time I get my schedule figured out so that I can be independent and not rely on others, my schedule gets crazier, and I am forced to rely on friends to drive me. I think Jesus is telling me something here. I need to accept help! Last week I had some wonderful friends that helped drive me back and forth. It was very lovely to be able to visit and have quality time. Maybe that is what I need to focus on. Quality time with others, and letting go of things that are not important in my life.
The one thing that should be of utmost importance is my time with God. Lately, I have had some great moments where I am unable to do anything but lay down and pray and talk and enjoy those quiet moments with God. These are precious times. Just about every morning I wake up already singing a song to the Lord. I love how most praise music comes from God's Word, so that we can sing scripture.
Getting into God's Word is a great way to start the day. I get up 30 minutes earlier than my family to have that quiet time. I read a daily devotion and ponder what the topic means to me. I pray for people around me who are in need. I thank God for His provision, mercy and love.
If you are struggling with feeling close to God, then try getting up a little earlier and opening up the Bible or devotion book. If you are struggling with something in your life, the peace and wisdom that you seek will come through scripture. We are studying Romans on Sundays, which is a good place to find out more of God's love. I am often asked how I can have so much joy and peace in my current condition. Without a doubt, the peace I have comes from knowing God's Word.
He will keep in perfect peace all those who trust in him, whose thoughts turn often to the Lord! Isaiah 26:3
In Peace,
Sandy
