This past week I had to get back to the basics. I had to step back and look at my knowledge of God and start at the beginning. The bottom line is that I know God loves me. I don't know why He would love me. I don't know why he made me with the faults that I have. I don't know why out of trillions of people, he would still be intimately involved in what is happening in my life. I don't know why he would set himself up for disappointment when it comes to me. It does not matter that it does not make sense to me. It all makes sense to God. He is so holy, I have no right to even speak his name, but because He is my father, I have all the rights of a child to go to him. He will always forgive and forget. He wipes the slate clean. Even when I yell at Him, He patiently waits for me to return and repent. He is unchanging in His love and grace. Psalm 139 says he knitted me in my Mother's womb. He has high hopes for me. He wants me to succeed. He wants me to spread the news of His love for all.
The other basic is that God can do the impossible. I don't want to limit him. He sees the big picture. He knows the timing has to be a certain way. As I worked on my Disney Cruise Shutterfly Book, I realized what a gift it was to do that vacation. A gift that was in more ways the one. I felt good on the cruise, and continue to feel good. That helps me take this on with strength. My family had a wonderful bonding time, so we are refreshed and ready to jump in and battle this new challenge together. God's timing is best.
In my testimony I share the story of the Miracle on the Hudson. The analogy is that when a flock of birds flies into your engine, do you have the knowledge and courage to navigate to safety. Do you have what it takes to trust God and land the plane safely. Can you make calm and rational decisions in the midst of a major crisis? Personally, I think I have trained my entire life for this mission.
The final basic is that God sometimes asks us to carry a load that seems too heavy. We need to be obedient and carry the load. We need to be trusting that there is a purpose for the load. We need to be thankful that He knows how to get rid of the load, AND that perhaps it is good training for us to carry something so heavy.
This week has many new beginnings. The start of my 45th year. The start of chemo. I know that God has my life in His hands. It should be a great year of surprises!
Love to all,
Sandy
