The writing below comes from Rick Warren and it really hit home for me this week. I get frustrated when things are not improving, or sometimes feel like they are getting worse. I must constantly remind myself that God is on a completely different time table that we are. What seems late, slow, a negative answer... may not be at all. He is just working out things behind the scenes that we don't see the results of immediately. I hate waiting! You hate waiting!
I am sure this will strike a cord with all of us in whatever circumstance we find ourselves in.
“Don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed.” (James 1:4b MSG)
Be patient with God and with yourself. One of life’s frustrations is that God’s timetable is rarely the same as ours. We are often in a hurry when God isn’t. You may feel frustrated with the seemingly slow progress you’re making in life.
Remember that God is never in a hurry, but he is always on time. He will use your entire lifetime to prepare you for your role in eternity.
The Bible is filled with examples of how God uses a long process to develop character, especially in leaders. He took 80 years to prepare Moses, including 40 in the wilderness. For 14,600 days Moses kept waiting and wondering, “Is it time yet?” But God kept saying, “Not yet.”
Contrary to popular book titles, there are no “Easy Steps to Maturity” or “Secrets of Instant Sainthood.” When God wants to make a giant oak, he takes a hundred years, but when he wants to make a mushroom, he does it overnight.
Great souls are grown through struggles and storms and seasons of suffering. Be patient with the process. James advised, “Don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed” (James 1:4b MSG).
Don’t get discouraged. When Habakkuk became depressed because he didn’t think God was acting quickly enough, God had this to say: “These things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!” (Habakkuk 2:3 LB)
A delay is not a denial from God!
Remember how far you’ve come, not just how far you have to go. You are not where you want to be, but neither are you where you used to be. Years ago people wore a popular button with the letters PBPGINFWMY. It stood for “Please Be Patient, God Is Not Finished With Me Yet.” God isn’t finished with you, either, so keep on moving forward. Even the snail reached the ark by persevering!
--Rick Warren
Blessings,
Sandy
Saturday, May 24, 2014
Monday, May 19, 2014
An Update
There have been a few fun and personal events in my life this past week (or more). My Girl Scout Troop (9 years) were awarded their Silver Award in a very special ceremony Tuesday, May 13. I was able to talk about their achievement in front of an auditorium of parents and Girl Scout dignitaries. In order to walk up the six stairs and talk in front of 500 people, I had to have my lung drained of 1,100 ml so I could breathe. Crazy, but got it done!
My second big event was Saturday night when the Girl Scout Troop had a wonderful family dinner at the home of our friends, the Hollars. It was a beautiful night, and God was very gracious in giving me the strength to speak in front of parents and grandparents about the honor it has been for me to be the Leader of their girls since kindergarten. This night was the official end of the Girl Scout Troop for me. I talked for awhile about the fun we had, and we all laughed and cried together. At the end of my little talk, I was able to empower the girls to go forward with faith. I hope that when they think of me, they will always think of a woman of faith, and I want them to grow their own faith by trusting God at all times and turning to Him in all circumstances.
On the health front, things have been a little frustrating. I have started having sporadic headaches starting two weeks ago in my left temple. The last time I had headaches like this was on my right side and I had to have radiation. On Mother's Day evening I had a migraine, and two days later I had another migraine, and last week I was waking up with a headache. This has been concerning, to say the least, and we are looking into a brain MRI to see what this means for the future. Two of the severe headaches seem to set off some sharp tingling in my mouth that felt like shingles, which was really upsetting. I am told it is just nerve related pain from what is happening in left temple.
I am also frustrated with enlargement of liver, which makes me look very bloated and sometimes pushes on other organs and causes discomfort. Also, I had a really bad charley horse in my right leg and I am hobbling around like a peg-leg pirate.
Meanwhile, I just want to get to Hawaii in a month and be with my family. It is my greatest prayer and hope to make it through graduation week (June 1-7) and leave for Hawaii on June 20th. I don't know why these things keep coming up, but I pray every day that God would just stabilize me and let me be able to travel. Sometimes it is really hard to see God's work in things when they are not going the way you think they should. Trust...Obey...Faith...Hope...I'm still there and leaning on the everlasting arms.
So, you know how to pray for me. I am starting a chemo that I was on well over a year ago. The biopsy came back and said it was the best one for me. Let's hope it has minimum side effects and does some major shrinking of tumors in the next month.
Blessings,
Sandy
My second big event was Saturday night when the Girl Scout Troop had a wonderful family dinner at the home of our friends, the Hollars. It was a beautiful night, and God was very gracious in giving me the strength to speak in front of parents and grandparents about the honor it has been for me to be the Leader of their girls since kindergarten. This night was the official end of the Girl Scout Troop for me. I talked for awhile about the fun we had, and we all laughed and cried together. At the end of my little talk, I was able to empower the girls to go forward with faith. I hope that when they think of me, they will always think of a woman of faith, and I want them to grow their own faith by trusting God at all times and turning to Him in all circumstances.
On the health front, things have been a little frustrating. I have started having sporadic headaches starting two weeks ago in my left temple. The last time I had headaches like this was on my right side and I had to have radiation. On Mother's Day evening I had a migraine, and two days later I had another migraine, and last week I was waking up with a headache. This has been concerning, to say the least, and we are looking into a brain MRI to see what this means for the future. Two of the severe headaches seem to set off some sharp tingling in my mouth that felt like shingles, which was really upsetting. I am told it is just nerve related pain from what is happening in left temple.
I am also frustrated with enlargement of liver, which makes me look very bloated and sometimes pushes on other organs and causes discomfort. Also, I had a really bad charley horse in my right leg and I am hobbling around like a peg-leg pirate.
Meanwhile, I just want to get to Hawaii in a month and be with my family. It is my greatest prayer and hope to make it through graduation week (June 1-7) and leave for Hawaii on June 20th. I don't know why these things keep coming up, but I pray every day that God would just stabilize me and let me be able to travel. Sometimes it is really hard to see God's work in things when they are not going the way you think they should. Trust...Obey...Faith...Hope...I'm still there and leaning on the everlasting arms.
So, you know how to pray for me. I am starting a chemo that I was on well over a year ago. The biopsy came back and said it was the best one for me. Let's hope it has minimum side effects and does some major shrinking of tumors in the next month.
Blessings,
Sandy
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Is It Wrong To Be Angry With God?
One of my daughters broke down and bitterly cried, "I am so mad at God! Why would He take my mother when there are really lousy moms out there and I need mine so bad?"
We cried together, and I told her it was O.K to be mad at God. We have the perfect Father who understands our hearts, and knows our pain. The key for me was that she not carry that anger her entire life, but at some point reconcile her feelings and discover God's great love for her, and that He never does anything to intentionally hurt us. I reminded her that in my situation, there is more going on behind the scenes than we know, and at some point you have to surrender your life to God and trust that in the big picture there is a purpose. He will take care of her, and so many others, if she stays open to His word and stands on faith. Bottom line, a painful conversation for me, and not one that is easily answered that will satisfy her young heart.
Being angry at God is something that many people, both believers and unbelievers, have wrestled with throughout time. When something tragic happens in our lives, we ask God the question, “Why?” because it is our natural response. What we are really asking Him, though, is not so much “Why, God?” as “Why me, God?” This response indicates two flaws in our thinking. First, as believers we operate under the impression that life should be easy, and that God should prevent tragedy from happening to us. When He does not, we get angry with Him. Second, when we do not understand the extent of God’s sovereignty, we lose confidence in His ability to control circumstances, other people, and the way they affect us. Then we get angry with God because He seems to have lost control of the universe and especially control of our lives. When we lose faith in God’s sovereignty, it is because our frail human flesh is grappling with our own frustration and our lack of control over events. When good things happen, we all too often attribute it to our own achievements and success. When bad things happen, however, we are quick to blame God, and we get angry with Him for not preventing it, which indicates the first flaw in our thinking—that we deserve to be immune to unpleasant circumstances.
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. 30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Matthew 10:29-31
Tragedies bring home the awful truth that we are not in charge. Everything that happens is either caused by or allowed by God. We can complain, get angry, and blame God for what is happening. Yet if we will trust Him and yield our bitterness and pain to Him, acknowledging the prideful sin of trying to force our own will over His, He can and will grant us His peace and strength to get us through any difficult situation
Our understanding of the sovereignty of God in all circumstances must be accompanied by our understanding of His other attributes: love, mercy, kindness, goodness, righteousness, justice, and holiness. When we see our difficulties through the truth of God’s Word (which tells us that our loving and holy God works all things together for our good, and that He has a perfect plan and purpose for us which cannot be thwarted) we begin to see our problems in a different light. Just because we come to Christ for salvation from sin does not mean we are guaranteed a life free from problems. In fact, Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble,” but that He has “overcome the world” (John 16:33), enabling us to have peace within, in spite of the storms that rage around us.
One thing is certain: inappropriate anger is sin. Ungodly anger is self-defeating, gives the devil a foothold in our lives, and can destroy our joy and peace if we hang on to it. Holding on to our anger will allow bitterness and resentment to spring up in our hearts. We must confess it to the Lord, and then in His forgiveness, we can release those feelings to Him. We must go before the Lord in prayer often in our grief, anger, and pain. The Bible tells us that David went before the throne of grace on behalf of his sick baby, fasting, weeping, and praying for him to survive. When the baby passed away, David got up and worshipped the Lord and then told his servants that he knew where his baby was and that he would someday be with him in God’s presence. David cried out to God during the baby’s illness, and afterward he bowed before Him in worship. That is a wonderful testimony. God knows our hearts, and it is pointless to try to hide how we really feel, so talking to Him about it is one of the best ways to handle our grief. If we do so humbly, pouring out our hearts to Him, He will work through us, and in the process, will make us more like Him.
The bottom line is can we trust God with everything, our very lives and the lives of our loved ones? Of course we can! Our God is compassionate, full of grace and love, and as disciples of Christ we can trust Him with all things. When tragedies happen to us, we know God can use them to bring us closer to Him and to strengthen our faith, bringing us to maturity and completeness. Is it wrong to be angry at God. Yes. Anger at God is a result of an inability or unwillingness to trust God even when we do not understand what He is doing. Anger at God is essentially telling God that He has done something wrong, which He never does. Does God understand when we are angry, frustrated, or disappointed with Him? Yes, He knows our hearts and He knows how difficult and painful life in this world can be. Does that make it right to be angry with God? Absolutely not. Instead of being angry with God, we should pour out our hearts to God in prayer and then trust that He is in control and that His plan is perfect
Blessings,
Sandy
We cried together, and I told her it was O.K to be mad at God. We have the perfect Father who understands our hearts, and knows our pain. The key for me was that she not carry that anger her entire life, but at some point reconcile her feelings and discover God's great love for her, and that He never does anything to intentionally hurt us. I reminded her that in my situation, there is more going on behind the scenes than we know, and at some point you have to surrender your life to God and trust that in the big picture there is a purpose. He will take care of her, and so many others, if she stays open to His word and stands on faith. Bottom line, a painful conversation for me, and not one that is easily answered that will satisfy her young heart.
Being angry at God is something that many people, both believers and unbelievers, have wrestled with throughout time. When something tragic happens in our lives, we ask God the question, “Why?” because it is our natural response. What we are really asking Him, though, is not so much “Why, God?” as “Why me, God?” This response indicates two flaws in our thinking. First, as believers we operate under the impression that life should be easy, and that God should prevent tragedy from happening to us. When He does not, we get angry with Him. Second, when we do not understand the extent of God’s sovereignty, we lose confidence in His ability to control circumstances, other people, and the way they affect us. Then we get angry with God because He seems to have lost control of the universe and especially control of our lives. When we lose faith in God’s sovereignty, it is because our frail human flesh is grappling with our own frustration and our lack of control over events. When good things happen, we all too often attribute it to our own achievements and success. When bad things happen, however, we are quick to blame God, and we get angry with Him for not preventing it, which indicates the first flaw in our thinking—that we deserve to be immune to unpleasant circumstances.
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. 30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Matthew 10:29-31
Tragedies bring home the awful truth that we are not in charge. Everything that happens is either caused by or allowed by God. We can complain, get angry, and blame God for what is happening. Yet if we will trust Him and yield our bitterness and pain to Him, acknowledging the prideful sin of trying to force our own will over His, He can and will grant us His peace and strength to get us through any difficult situation
Our understanding of the sovereignty of God in all circumstances must be accompanied by our understanding of His other attributes: love, mercy, kindness, goodness, righteousness, justice, and holiness. When we see our difficulties through the truth of God’s Word (which tells us that our loving and holy God works all things together for our good, and that He has a perfect plan and purpose for us which cannot be thwarted) we begin to see our problems in a different light. Just because we come to Christ for salvation from sin does not mean we are guaranteed a life free from problems. In fact, Jesus said, “In this world you will have trouble,” but that He has “overcome the world” (John 16:33), enabling us to have peace within, in spite of the storms that rage around us.
One thing is certain: inappropriate anger is sin. Ungodly anger is self-defeating, gives the devil a foothold in our lives, and can destroy our joy and peace if we hang on to it. Holding on to our anger will allow bitterness and resentment to spring up in our hearts. We must confess it to the Lord, and then in His forgiveness, we can release those feelings to Him. We must go before the Lord in prayer often in our grief, anger, and pain. The Bible tells us that David went before the throne of grace on behalf of his sick baby, fasting, weeping, and praying for him to survive. When the baby passed away, David got up and worshipped the Lord and then told his servants that he knew where his baby was and that he would someday be with him in God’s presence. David cried out to God during the baby’s illness, and afterward he bowed before Him in worship. That is a wonderful testimony. God knows our hearts, and it is pointless to try to hide how we really feel, so talking to Him about it is one of the best ways to handle our grief. If we do so humbly, pouring out our hearts to Him, He will work through us, and in the process, will make us more like Him.
The bottom line is can we trust God with everything, our very lives and the lives of our loved ones? Of course we can! Our God is compassionate, full of grace and love, and as disciples of Christ we can trust Him with all things. When tragedies happen to us, we know God can use them to bring us closer to Him and to strengthen our faith, bringing us to maturity and completeness. Is it wrong to be angry at God. Yes. Anger at God is a result of an inability or unwillingness to trust God even when we do not understand what He is doing. Anger at God is essentially telling God that He has done something wrong, which He never does. Does God understand when we are angry, frustrated, or disappointed with Him? Yes, He knows our hearts and He knows how difficult and painful life in this world can be. Does that make it right to be angry with God? Absolutely not. Instead of being angry with God, we should pour out our hearts to God in prayer and then trust that He is in control and that His plan is perfect
Blessings,
Sandy
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Where Is God When We Struggle?
“Suddenly, their eyes were opened, and they recognized him. And at that moment he disappeared!” (Luke 24:31 NLT)
There are days when I sit and wonder what God is doing. I wonder what He is working on that very moment that I may be a part of at some point. I feel as if this is a very powerful time of prayer not only by people who are really good at going to the cross for another, but by people who don't normally pray but feel drawn to talk to God on my behalf. I know that God is at work in ways I can't begin to imagine, but sometimes my days are rather quiet and I wish He would give me a little sign to clue me in on what He is thinking.
I am sure that you have wondered where God was during a struggle. You and I are not alone. Imagine the disciples who traveled with him for three years and thought they knew Jesus was the Messiah, but now he is dead. On the very first Easter morning, right after Jesus’ Crucifixion, the disciples are walking and talking and trying to make sense of the last few days. In Luke 24 we read that they had heard reports that Jesus’ grave was empty. They were very confused.
Suddenly Jesus himself came alongside the disciples and joined them in their journey. Yet they were in so much grief, they didn’t notice him. Jesus asked about what they were discussing, and so the disciples let him in on the discussion. Jesus went on to share Old Testament passages that explained the events of the past few days.
That night, as they ate dinner with Jesus, the Bible says that “Suddenly, their eyes were opened, and they recognized him. And at that moment he disappeared!” Luke 24:31 (NLT)
Imagine what that experience was like for these disciples. The guy they thought was God was crucified and dead. Then they hear he’s been resurrected, but they don’t believe it. Then a stranger walks along the road with them, eats with them, and suddenly they realize that it’s God himself! And then he disappears.
The disciples couldn’t see Jesus in their grief. They needed God to show himself to them. I need God to show himself to me. However, deep inside I know that my God would never leave me. I know He is walking (no, carrying) me through this pain. Though I don't see miracles yet, it does not mean they are not on their way. There is a rumble that has started, and it is growing. God will show up, and it will be powerful. Our prayers do not come back empty because we have a God who truly loves us. I have complete confidence and peace because of God's Word.
This week I took another step backward with a blood clot in my right arm. I was kinda hoping not to have to deal with one more thing. The radiation of the liver was discussed and tabled for now. It would be really hard on me and I don't want to make things harder during a time of celebrations with graduation coming up. We are still waiting for the biopsy result. Chemo is knocking me into a lethargic state, so pray for more energy. My blood count was good, so maybe chemo is helping.
In talking with God yesterday, I realized I am right where I always have wanted to be. Entirely dependent on Him, my life in His hands, not relying on medical technology but His mercy. Percentages are low when you don't have God on your side. Fortunately, either way I have a good ending. I know who has my life in His hands, and I am certain that I will be with God if healing does not occur. We never know the number of our days, but it is good to have such great insurance.
I hope those last words ring in your ears. If you have never accepted Jesus officially into your heart, please look at the prayer I posted in the sidebar. It can be prayed at anytime between you and God. Some people do their duty and go to church on special days, acknowledge that Jesus was real, believe in a God... but have never truly asked Jesus into their heart. Don't miss this moment.
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.
John 3:16-21
I hope you pray the prayer,
Sandy
.
There are days when I sit and wonder what God is doing. I wonder what He is working on that very moment that I may be a part of at some point. I feel as if this is a very powerful time of prayer not only by people who are really good at going to the cross for another, but by people who don't normally pray but feel drawn to talk to God on my behalf. I know that God is at work in ways I can't begin to imagine, but sometimes my days are rather quiet and I wish He would give me a little sign to clue me in on what He is thinking.
I am sure that you have wondered where God was during a struggle. You and I are not alone. Imagine the disciples who traveled with him for three years and thought they knew Jesus was the Messiah, but now he is dead. On the very first Easter morning, right after Jesus’ Crucifixion, the disciples are walking and talking and trying to make sense of the last few days. In Luke 24 we read that they had heard reports that Jesus’ grave was empty. They were very confused.
Suddenly Jesus himself came alongside the disciples and joined them in their journey. Yet they were in so much grief, they didn’t notice him. Jesus asked about what they were discussing, and so the disciples let him in on the discussion. Jesus went on to share Old Testament passages that explained the events of the past few days.
That night, as they ate dinner with Jesus, the Bible says that “Suddenly, their eyes were opened, and they recognized him. And at that moment he disappeared!” Luke 24:31 (NLT)
Imagine what that experience was like for these disciples. The guy they thought was God was crucified and dead. Then they hear he’s been resurrected, but they don’t believe it. Then a stranger walks along the road with them, eats with them, and suddenly they realize that it’s God himself! And then he disappears.
The disciples couldn’t see Jesus in their grief. They needed God to show himself to them. I need God to show himself to me. However, deep inside I know that my God would never leave me. I know He is walking (no, carrying) me through this pain. Though I don't see miracles yet, it does not mean they are not on their way. There is a rumble that has started, and it is growing. God will show up, and it will be powerful. Our prayers do not come back empty because we have a God who truly loves us. I have complete confidence and peace because of God's Word.
This week I took another step backward with a blood clot in my right arm. I was kinda hoping not to have to deal with one more thing. The radiation of the liver was discussed and tabled for now. It would be really hard on me and I don't want to make things harder during a time of celebrations with graduation coming up. We are still waiting for the biopsy result. Chemo is knocking me into a lethargic state, so pray for more energy. My blood count was good, so maybe chemo is helping.
In talking with God yesterday, I realized I am right where I always have wanted to be. Entirely dependent on Him, my life in His hands, not relying on medical technology but His mercy. Percentages are low when you don't have God on your side. Fortunately, either way I have a good ending. I know who has my life in His hands, and I am certain that I will be with God if healing does not occur. We never know the number of our days, but it is good to have such great insurance.
I hope those last words ring in your ears. If you have never accepted Jesus officially into your heart, please look at the prayer I posted in the sidebar. It can be prayed at anytime between you and God. Some people do their duty and go to church on special days, acknowledge that Jesus was real, believe in a God... but have never truly asked Jesus into their heart. Don't miss this moment.
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.
John 3:16-21
I hope you pray the prayer,
Sandy
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Friday, April 18, 2014
My Seven Year Anniversary
Isaiah 53:4-5 Yet it was our sicknesses that he carried, it was our pains that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But, he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed.
On April 19, 2007, Jon and I were called in and told I have cancer. Seven years ago our life changed in an instant, and we had no comprehension at that moment what all it would entail. Surgery on my broken neck was the first order of business, then years of chemotherapy drugs. Some of the drugs were fabulous and gave me long stretches of time when I felt really great. I would say that five, almost six years, were mainly tolerable. Considering my odds of living past five were low, I am thankful for the miracles that God worked on my behalf to have the extra years.
God works in mind boggling ways, and He has blessed me with the ability to have a Blog and share my faith during my struggles with stage 4 cancer. This has been a great ministry for me, and I am so thankful to read comments from people all over the country who have allowed me into their hearts, and have searched for a closer relationship with God.
Of all the years, my anniversary has never landed on the same weekend as Easter. I feel so grateful this year to be quietly celebrating seven years on Saturday, but celebrating an eternal risen Savior on Sunday. It is truly what this journey is all about for me. My suffering, my meager years of existence, are nothing compared to the life of Jesus, His suffering for us all, and the endless days of being in His presence here on earth and always.
On this Good Friday, I pray that you ponder the events that led to Jesus's death on the cross, and His glorious resurrection that we celebrate on Sunday. I love the story of the thief on the cross next to Jesus as told by Pastor Rick Warren.
“It is by grace you have been saved, through faith — and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God — not by works, so that no one can boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9 NIV)
In Luke 23:42, one of the criminals hanging next to Jesus on the cross prayed, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom” (NIV).
Notice that he didn’t ask Jesus to stop his pain, although he would have been in excruciating pain on the cross. By that time, Jesus was famous for doing miracles, but the man didn’t ask Jesus to save him from death, either.
He said, “Jesus, remember me.” Why? Because he knew that his deepest need was salvation from sin — not just salvation to get into Heaven. He believed in Jesus.
The Bible says in Acts 16:31, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved” (NIV).
So how do you know for sure that you’re saved? How do you know you’re going to Heaven when you die? How can you be certain? How can you eliminate your doubt?
Your assurance of salvation is not by your works, because you can’t earn your salvation. Your assurance of salvation is not by your feelings, because feelings come and go.
What is your assurance of salvation? The promise of God’s Word. If God says it, that settles it, because God cannot lie. You can trust the promise of God’s Word. You can rest in it.
Jesus replied to the criminal hanging on the cross, “I assure you, today you will be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43 NLT).
Your assurance of salvation is the same: God’s promise that you will be in Heaven with him one day if you believe in faith.
Love,
Sandy
On April 19, 2007, Jon and I were called in and told I have cancer. Seven years ago our life changed in an instant, and we had no comprehension at that moment what all it would entail. Surgery on my broken neck was the first order of business, then years of chemotherapy drugs. Some of the drugs were fabulous and gave me long stretches of time when I felt really great. I would say that five, almost six years, were mainly tolerable. Considering my odds of living past five were low, I am thankful for the miracles that God worked on my behalf to have the extra years.
God works in mind boggling ways, and He has blessed me with the ability to have a Blog and share my faith during my struggles with stage 4 cancer. This has been a great ministry for me, and I am so thankful to read comments from people all over the country who have allowed me into their hearts, and have searched for a closer relationship with God.
Of all the years, my anniversary has never landed on the same weekend as Easter. I feel so grateful this year to be quietly celebrating seven years on Saturday, but celebrating an eternal risen Savior on Sunday. It is truly what this journey is all about for me. My suffering, my meager years of existence, are nothing compared to the life of Jesus, His suffering for us all, and the endless days of being in His presence here on earth and always.
On this Good Friday, I pray that you ponder the events that led to Jesus's death on the cross, and His glorious resurrection that we celebrate on Sunday. I love the story of the thief on the cross next to Jesus as told by Pastor Rick Warren.
“It is by grace you have been saved, through faith — and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God — not by works, so that no one can boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9 NIV)
In Luke 23:42, one of the criminals hanging next to Jesus on the cross prayed, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom” (NIV).
Notice that he didn’t ask Jesus to stop his pain, although he would have been in excruciating pain on the cross. By that time, Jesus was famous for doing miracles, but the man didn’t ask Jesus to save him from death, either.
He said, “Jesus, remember me.” Why? Because he knew that his deepest need was salvation from sin — not just salvation to get into Heaven. He believed in Jesus.
The Bible says in Acts 16:31, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved” (NIV).
So how do you know for sure that you’re saved? How do you know you’re going to Heaven when you die? How can you be certain? How can you eliminate your doubt?
Your assurance of salvation is not by your works, because you can’t earn your salvation. Your assurance of salvation is not by your feelings, because feelings come and go.
What is your assurance of salvation? The promise of God’s Word. If God says it, that settles it, because God cannot lie. You can trust the promise of God’s Word. You can rest in it.
Jesus replied to the criminal hanging on the cross, “I assure you, today you will be with me in paradise” (Luke 23:43 NLT).
Your assurance of salvation is the same: God’s promise that you will be in Heaven with him one day if you believe in faith.
Love,
Sandy
Sunday, April 13, 2014
24 Hour Prayer
I want to thank you for the enormous amount of love and prayer you have given me this week. Many are asking how the girls are doing. I think we have had some meaningful conversations, and we have also kept it light around here. We need to laugh, and so we find moments each day to do so.
After my post last week, I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the many messages posted on my Facebook and Blog. I must tell you that I read them all with tears flowing like a waterfall, and I am so humbled and blessed to be a part of your lives in a way that has reflected back to Jesus. I love the way that God has allowed me to write this Blog, and gave me this ministry to bring purpose for me and hope for you.
One of the really beautiful gifts that came from this week was a 24 hour prayer chain that my Women's Bible Study started. To stop and think that someone is praying for me each minute of the day is so empowering. Last night I woke up with a little foot cramp. I did not want to wake Jon so I quietly sat on the edge of our bed trying to relax and work it out. I looked at the clock and thought, "Someone right now is praying for me at 3am." I started praying myself, knowing that God's Word says that when two or three are gathered in His name, He is there. I felt God's peace and comfort that I was not alone.
I am sure that the "why" question is on all of our minds. Why has God not saved Sandy from pain? Why would God take Sandy from her family? Why does there have to be cancer and suffering?
I am learning that instead of asking God “Why?” you need to learn to trust God in things you don’t understand.
For 37 chapters in the book of Job, Job asks the “why” questions: “Why is this happening to me? Why are you allowing this? Why so much pain? Why so much discomfort? Why haven’t you answered my prayers?”
In chapter 38, Job stops asking “why.” And God says, “Now I’d like to ask you a few questions.” And for the next two chapters, God hits Job with questions that only God can answer.
He asks things like, “Where were you when I made the universe? Can you explain the law of gravity?” And, after two chapters, Job realizes that he is just a man, and his knowledge is limited. Who is he to question God?
Job stops questioning, and he starts trusting. He replied to the Lord, “I know that you can do anything, and no one can stop you. You asked, ‘Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorance?’ It is I — and I was talking about things I knew nothing about, things far too wonderful for me.… I take back everything I said, and I sit in dust and ashes to show my repentance” (Job 42:1-3, 6 NLT).
What do you do when you can’t see the whole picture, things aren’t clear, and it makes no sense to you what’s happening?
I don’t know what you’re dealing with in your life, but I will tell you this: God is passionately and intimately aware of every detail that you’re going through right now. He’s paying attention to your every breath. Nothing gets by God’s attention.
You may not understand why you’re going through what you’re going through, but you need to say this to God: “I know you’re good; I know you’re loving; I know you’re powerful; I know you notice the details of my life; I know you’re in control; I know you have a plan; I know you will protect me.” Then, you need to trust God — no matter what.
I find that my biggest challenge is living with hope that God can do the impossible at any moment, but being responsible for my family and the many ways that I run my house, pay bills, and other tasks that must be handed off to others if God's will is to take me home. It is a surreal place to be.
I am writing this Blog on Palm Sunday. This is an important day to recognize because Jesus was entering Jerusalem for Passover with much praise, and the hope of many Jews that he would deliver them from the Romans. By the end of the week the disciples will have lots of "why" questions. Jesus tried to prepare them, but they just were not getting the picture. By Friday, they felt disillusioned and scared, and nothing made sense anymore. How could they ever know that Sunday was coming? Not in a million years would they imagine the unimaginable and impossible resurrection!
I hope you get a chance this week to ponder the events that led to the crucifixion and Jesus' death on the cross for all of our sins. God had said that our sinful ways had a consequence, and God does not lie. Jesus came clean and pure, a lamb without blemish, to be take on the penalty of death for all of us. In the biggest act of love ever recorded, Jesus became our substitute so that we would never have to enter the depths of hell for our sins.
This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long...this is why I walk the path I walk. I have nothing but gratitude that God loved us all so very much. I trust that every day He makes decisions on my behalf out of love for me.
Blessings,
Sandy
After my post last week, I was overwhelmed with gratitude for the many messages posted on my Facebook and Blog. I must tell you that I read them all with tears flowing like a waterfall, and I am so humbled and blessed to be a part of your lives in a way that has reflected back to Jesus. I love the way that God has allowed me to write this Blog, and gave me this ministry to bring purpose for me and hope for you.
One of the really beautiful gifts that came from this week was a 24 hour prayer chain that my Women's Bible Study started. To stop and think that someone is praying for me each minute of the day is so empowering. Last night I woke up with a little foot cramp. I did not want to wake Jon so I quietly sat on the edge of our bed trying to relax and work it out. I looked at the clock and thought, "Someone right now is praying for me at 3am." I started praying myself, knowing that God's Word says that when two or three are gathered in His name, He is there. I felt God's peace and comfort that I was not alone.
I am sure that the "why" question is on all of our minds. Why has God not saved Sandy from pain? Why would God take Sandy from her family? Why does there have to be cancer and suffering?
I am learning that instead of asking God “Why?” you need to learn to trust God in things you don’t understand.
For 37 chapters in the book of Job, Job asks the “why” questions: “Why is this happening to me? Why are you allowing this? Why so much pain? Why so much discomfort? Why haven’t you answered my prayers?”
In chapter 38, Job stops asking “why.” And God says, “Now I’d like to ask you a few questions.” And for the next two chapters, God hits Job with questions that only God can answer.
He asks things like, “Where were you when I made the universe? Can you explain the law of gravity?” And, after two chapters, Job realizes that he is just a man, and his knowledge is limited. Who is he to question God?
Job stops questioning, and he starts trusting. He replied to the Lord, “I know that you can do anything, and no one can stop you. You asked, ‘Who is this that questions my wisdom with such ignorance?’ It is I — and I was talking about things I knew nothing about, things far too wonderful for me.… I take back everything I said, and I sit in dust and ashes to show my repentance” (Job 42:1-3, 6 NLT).
What do you do when you can’t see the whole picture, things aren’t clear, and it makes no sense to you what’s happening?
I don’t know what you’re dealing with in your life, but I will tell you this: God is passionately and intimately aware of every detail that you’re going through right now. He’s paying attention to your every breath. Nothing gets by God’s attention.
You may not understand why you’re going through what you’re going through, but you need to say this to God: “I know you’re good; I know you’re loving; I know you’re powerful; I know you notice the details of my life; I know you’re in control; I know you have a plan; I know you will protect me.” Then, you need to trust God — no matter what.
I find that my biggest challenge is living with hope that God can do the impossible at any moment, but being responsible for my family and the many ways that I run my house, pay bills, and other tasks that must be handed off to others if God's will is to take me home. It is a surreal place to be.
I am writing this Blog on Palm Sunday. This is an important day to recognize because Jesus was entering Jerusalem for Passover with much praise, and the hope of many Jews that he would deliver them from the Romans. By the end of the week the disciples will have lots of "why" questions. Jesus tried to prepare them, but they just were not getting the picture. By Friday, they felt disillusioned and scared, and nothing made sense anymore. How could they ever know that Sunday was coming? Not in a million years would they imagine the unimaginable and impossible resurrection!
I hope you get a chance this week to ponder the events that led to the crucifixion and Jesus' death on the cross for all of our sins. God had said that our sinful ways had a consequence, and God does not lie. Jesus came clean and pure, a lamb without blemish, to be take on the penalty of death for all of us. In the biggest act of love ever recorded, Jesus became our substitute so that we would never have to enter the depths of hell for our sins.
This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long...this is why I walk the path I walk. I have nothing but gratitude that God loved us all so very much. I trust that every day He makes decisions on my behalf out of love for me.
Blessings,
Sandy
Monday, April 7, 2014
Time For The Truth
This past weekend was a hard one for our girls. Because of recent news, we were encouraged to tell them the truth about my current condition. Now that they know, I feel I can be honest to all of my friends and family.
Two weeks ago I as given the news that I only have one more chemotherapy available to me, and it's chance of shrinking the tumors in my liver are about 20% at best. I have quickly gone through the last really strong chemo drugs. One started in September, but by the end of December had become ineffective. The second chemo started in January and has now failed me. This last chemo is a long shot, but one we are hoping God can work with. I start the new chemo tomorrow.
My second crack (in the door of hope) is a biopsy I had done this past Friday that will be sent in for Molecular Profiling. There is a slight chance it will come back in three week with a chemo that the doctors may have not thought of.
There is a final shot in the dark option having to do with radiation. We have not gotten word if I am a candidate for it.
Not news we wanted to ever hear, and not news we ever wanted to pass on. But the reality is facing us that time is winding down, unless God wants to step in.
It is no secret that I believe in healing. I believe it with all my heart. At this very moment I feel like two freight trains are bearing down on me. One is healing and the power of God to use it as an incredible testimony for what I know is true. The other train is death, and I am not afraid for myself but deeply sad for my family.
My faith will never waiver. No matter what the answer is, I know God will provide for everyone around me in ways that will blow their mind. I have always tried hard not to make this about me, but about the amazing purpose and journey I have found in the past seven years, which has brought others to know Jesus better.
I still believe in God's promises, and I know at the end of the day He would never lie. Answers to promises don't always come as we would like them to look. I am honestly in the negotiation phase of convincing God that I can do more for His Kingdom here on earth than in an hour funeral service. But, when you want the will of God above anything else, you know in your heart that the masterpiece God is painting is not fully revealed until we are in heaven. I don't know what role I have in this masterpiece. I know it has been something, but I want more.
We are trying to keep things normal for our family. We don't listen to doctor estimates because we know God can do exceedingly more, and I have always been on His time table. I have had seven years instead of five (or less). It is a tough year to have this happen with all of the incredible milestones of graduation, Hawaii, 50th BD, Rachel going to college and Michelle going to High School.
I cling to some familiar verses that people of written on my Blog and sent in cards.
Isaiah 43:1-3
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
Ephesians 3:20-21
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
What can you do? Just pray for us. Pray for great memories to be made. Pray for joy and peace to settle into all of our hearts. Pray for wisdom and guidance. Most of all, pray for healing.
Love to you all,
Sandy
Two weeks ago I as given the news that I only have one more chemotherapy available to me, and it's chance of shrinking the tumors in my liver are about 20% at best. I have quickly gone through the last really strong chemo drugs. One started in September, but by the end of December had become ineffective. The second chemo started in January and has now failed me. This last chemo is a long shot, but one we are hoping God can work with. I start the new chemo tomorrow.
My second crack (in the door of hope) is a biopsy I had done this past Friday that will be sent in for Molecular Profiling. There is a slight chance it will come back in three week with a chemo that the doctors may have not thought of.
There is a final shot in the dark option having to do with radiation. We have not gotten word if I am a candidate for it.
Not news we wanted to ever hear, and not news we ever wanted to pass on. But the reality is facing us that time is winding down, unless God wants to step in.
It is no secret that I believe in healing. I believe it with all my heart. At this very moment I feel like two freight trains are bearing down on me. One is healing and the power of God to use it as an incredible testimony for what I know is true. The other train is death, and I am not afraid for myself but deeply sad for my family.
My faith will never waiver. No matter what the answer is, I know God will provide for everyone around me in ways that will blow their mind. I have always tried hard not to make this about me, but about the amazing purpose and journey I have found in the past seven years, which has brought others to know Jesus better.
I still believe in God's promises, and I know at the end of the day He would never lie. Answers to promises don't always come as we would like them to look. I am honestly in the negotiation phase of convincing God that I can do more for His Kingdom here on earth than in an hour funeral service. But, when you want the will of God above anything else, you know in your heart that the masterpiece God is painting is not fully revealed until we are in heaven. I don't know what role I have in this masterpiece. I know it has been something, but I want more.
We are trying to keep things normal for our family. We don't listen to doctor estimates because we know God can do exceedingly more, and I have always been on His time table. I have had seven years instead of five (or less). It is a tough year to have this happen with all of the incredible milestones of graduation, Hawaii, 50th BD, Rachel going to college and Michelle going to High School.
I cling to some familiar verses that people of written on my Blog and sent in cards.
Isaiah 43:1-3
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
3 For I am the Lord your God,
Ephesians 3:20-21
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
What can you do? Just pray for us. Pray for great memories to be made. Pray for joy and peace to settle into all of our hearts. Pray for wisdom and guidance. Most of all, pray for healing.
Love to you all,
Sandy
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Minor Surgery
I will be having minor surgery tomorrow to place a catheter into my chest wall so that I can drain my lung at home and not continue going to COH every week or two weeks. This will be a positive step because if I can keep that area dry, there is a chance of the lung coming back to the chest wall and not having to be drained. The catheter is not permanent.
In addition to the catheter, a surgeon will be taking a biopsy of a tumor on my neck so that it can be sent in for molecular profiling. This profiling helps doctors to see what is the very best chemo for the cancer, and there are times when it reveals something they would not have thought of otherwise.
I feeling stronger this week, and hopeful that the decisions we are making will help me fight for the future.
There are so many verses that come to my mind at the moment. I have been reading in Psalms, and the scripture is full of fight and promises.
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. Psalm 62:5
Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.
Psalm 27:14
The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore. Psalm 121:5-8
I could never physically walk this road, so I am thankful that Jesus is carrying me.
Blessings,
Sandy
In addition to the catheter, a surgeon will be taking a biopsy of a tumor on my neck so that it can be sent in for molecular profiling. This profiling helps doctors to see what is the very best chemo for the cancer, and there are times when it reveals something they would not have thought of otherwise.
I feeling stronger this week, and hopeful that the decisions we are making will help me fight for the future.
There are so many verses that come to my mind at the moment. I have been reading in Psalms, and the scripture is full of fight and promises.
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. Psalm 62:5
Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.
Psalm 27:14
The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore. Psalm 121:5-8
I could never physically walk this road, so I am thankful that Jesus is carrying me.
Blessings,
Sandy
Monday, March 31, 2014
Prayers That Shook The Ground
I want to thank you all so much for being diligent in praying for me last week. I am not feeling well, and it is hard to have energy to write. I had my lung drained again on both sides, which gave relief for a few days. I could really feel your prayers because my situation had not changed, but my attitude got better, and I felt more peace as the week progressed.
By the time the earthquake hit on Friday night, we had a good laugh watching the news, and a picture of the same chandelier swinging for two hours. I know earthquakes are not meant to be funny, but it tickled our funny bone and gave us some comic relief.
There are test results this week and decisions to be made. I am always grateful that God walks these tough roads with me (us). My faith has not waivered, and my eyes are fixed on Him.
Blessings,
Sandy
By the time the earthquake hit on Friday night, we had a good laugh watching the news, and a picture of the same chandelier swinging for two hours. I know earthquakes are not meant to be funny, but it tickled our funny bone and gave us some comic relief.
There are test results this week and decisions to be made. I am always grateful that God walks these tough roads with me (us). My faith has not waivered, and my eyes are fixed on Him.
Blessings,
Sandy
Monday, March 24, 2014
Does Satan Read Blogs?
Sometimes I think that Satan is reading my Blog and then attacks me right where it hurts. I wrote about Joy is Suffering several weeks back, and I thought I had a good handle on keeping the joy going even though things were not exactly great with my health.
Lately, I have had a hard time finding joy in my day. I have tried singing little songs in my head about the joy that Jesus brings, but that bubble of happiness has not surfaced. I sink myself deep into God's Word and understand fully that He wants us to give our sorrows and fears to Him so we can feel His joy, but my head is not connecting to my heart.
I feel like I need a good belly laugh. The kind that makes you cry, and at my old age, pee my pants. I certainly don't get joy from the endless hours of watching TV because I don't have much strength to do anything else.
I heard that a person needs to experience at least 5 minutes of joy every day for their overall health. I think of my children and husband, and the great moments of joy we have had in traveling. I think about the fun times with my parents, step-parents, and friends. I am very blessed with such a great support system. I absolutely can't help but thank God for his mercy and work in my life, and the good I have been able to be a part of through Him.
You would think that these beautiful thoughts would fill my entire day with joy, but something dark starts to take over by mid-morning, and the joy starts to fade into frustration that I can't breathe well (I had another 1700 ml drained from lung last Thursday), and that I will be at COH every day this week due to chemo and radiation. I don't think the chemo is working out.
My minister, and friend, Betsy told me to be honest this week when I wrote my Blog. So this is my honest struggle right now, and I know it will help you to be specific in your prayers for me. I still could not live without my love of Jesus and the knowledge that I serve a God who can do great things. God lays it all out there in His Word, but somehow it needs to penetrate my heart and flood the chamber that taps into joy.
I am looking for better, and joyful, days ahead. Thank you for speaking to God on my behalf. Sometimes I don't have all the answers, but I know that God does.
Sandy
Lately, I have had a hard time finding joy in my day. I have tried singing little songs in my head about the joy that Jesus brings, but that bubble of happiness has not surfaced. I sink myself deep into God's Word and understand fully that He wants us to give our sorrows and fears to Him so we can feel His joy, but my head is not connecting to my heart.
I feel like I need a good belly laugh. The kind that makes you cry, and at my old age, pee my pants. I certainly don't get joy from the endless hours of watching TV because I don't have much strength to do anything else.
I heard that a person needs to experience at least 5 minutes of joy every day for their overall health. I think of my children and husband, and the great moments of joy we have had in traveling. I think about the fun times with my parents, step-parents, and friends. I am very blessed with such a great support system. I absolutely can't help but thank God for his mercy and work in my life, and the good I have been able to be a part of through Him.
You would think that these beautiful thoughts would fill my entire day with joy, but something dark starts to take over by mid-morning, and the joy starts to fade into frustration that I can't breathe well (I had another 1700 ml drained from lung last Thursday), and that I will be at COH every day this week due to chemo and radiation. I don't think the chemo is working out.
My minister, and friend, Betsy told me to be honest this week when I wrote my Blog. So this is my honest struggle right now, and I know it will help you to be specific in your prayers for me. I still could not live without my love of Jesus and the knowledge that I serve a God who can do great things. God lays it all out there in His Word, but somehow it needs to penetrate my heart and flood the chamber that taps into joy.
I am looking for better, and joyful, days ahead. Thank you for speaking to God on my behalf. Sometimes I don't have all the answers, but I know that God does.
Sandy
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